“Those people who live their dreams are sad messes and the people who end up flailing behind are people who have their shit together”

– Girls TV Series

When Hannah, the lead character in Girls said this, it really struck a chord with me.

• My job is going fantastically well
• I have lots of super friends
• Family is as wonderful as ever

Yet, I’m still single.

I have my shit together.  But I’m flailing behind on the partner-front.

Today I received my first wedding invite from a friend.  As exciting as this is, it’s also the start of something terrifying.  In the summer ahead, I know three or four couples getting married, and more are in the pipe-line.

I’m not saying that my friends are ‘sad messes’ – it’s more a reflection on me: surely, once most areas of your life are sorted, the last piece of the puzzle just slots into place….?

In fact, the past few months have actually led to quite a few steps in the wrong direction.  Being stood-up, being ignored after a charming one-night-stand (I’m aware of the juxtaposition; let’s move on) and countless cancelled dates are not conducive to a happy single life.  I feel things are going a bit pear-shaped.

With this in mind, a friend and I are off speed-dating.  I’ve worked out there are four possible outcomes:

1. Numbers are exchanged, and successful dates occur
2. Numbers are exchanged, dates are a disaster
3. No numbers are exchanged, but I have a fun night out with my friend
4. No numbers are exchanged, the night is a disaster and I feel as single as ever

Number 3 would be fine.  Number 4 would not be.  Number 3 would be okay.

But wouldn’t it be wonderful if Number 1 was the outcome of the night?

I’ll let you know.