If I’d have known…

To Younger Me, You’re 16 and you need to know it’s not gonna go how you plan.  You won’t be with this man forever; he’ll surprise and disappoint you and resurface like those sparkly hot pants you forgot you had.  When you leave him you’ll be lost.  But you’ll work out it’s how you find…

Unravelling

The inevitable has come to fruition, And everything else is tumbling inward at an alarming rate. I’m unravelling. Will screaming help? Not really. Will crying? Temporarily. How will I fill the void you’ll create with your absence?      

Colours of our lives

Last week I went to India.  I am writing this at 3am on a Monday morning (UK time) because I can’t shift this jet lag, having only landed at 9pm Sunday night.   For me, one of the most striking aspects of the Indian culture is the colour: sarees, spices and holi abir add a…

These hands

These hands these hands – adorned with silver, gold and opal – twitch with a need for touch they tingle for intimacy my fingertips hold yours; will you be around for long enough for me to learn their print?   the lick of varnish applied before rousing Friday nights wears off by Monday morning; telling of…

History repeating itself.

There was instant attraction between the first guy and I. It happened once, then it happened again, and again and again. Love developed (at least on my side). Sadly, this man had someone else. Of course she was is a sexy Spaniard – he is was a marvelous Mancunian. An attraction based on friendship, fuelled by…

Runaway Bride

The penny has finally dropped.  It’s taken a year of hard learning, but I’ve got there. Things are usually so easy with The Bar Man; we both know how casual our relationship is and our evening started as it always has done.  As good friends do, we spent time catching up over a glass of…

A little break…

My lovely readers, It’s time for me to take a little break from this blog.  I’ve been blogging on here for over three years and although I find it cathartic, therapeutic and fun, it’s also causing me to obsess over being single – not an attractive quality… Maybe that’s why I’m still single?   I…

You know you’re getting old when…

My best friend and I had a competition: half an hour to write about being an adult in 2017. Here’s my entry. Here’s his entry: Why is it that, as a grown-up, our most important mile stones in life (18, 21, 25 and 30) seem to be fraught with reservations (OMG I’m getting really old,…

Your future girlfriend will thank me.

I taught you how to dress in the style you seek.  I taught you which neck and sleeve lines look good with the way you do your hair.  I demonstrated how some colours suit your skin and hair colour, and how some don’t.  In the minefield you found jeans to be, I taught you which…

Opposites.

What do I want? One was not this, that and the other enough. The other was too this, that and the other. But not enough of this other thing. He was perfect with this other thing. Has that thing affected my love map? Has that person affected my love map?  Undoubtedly.  He’s an alpha.  And that’s…