A Hopeful Letter – My Response

Dear A, What a beautiful, candid letter.  A mix of emotions rose up; eyes watering and a smile pinching at my cheeks; thank you for your honesty. I didn’t expect us to get to where we are now so soon.  It’s been a rough few months, hasn’t it?  Breaking up (unknowingly) just before a global…

Moving Forward; A’s Letter – Guest Blog

With time and after a few tearful phone calls, A and I have reached a stage of calmness, acceptance and positivity.  Here’s his recent letter to me (you can read his first one, here).  As with the previous letter; A has said I can post it on the blog.   Dear H, First of all,…

A’s love letter – Guest Blog

Last year, when A and I were blissfully happy, I shared with him this blog.  It has always been hidden from boyfriends because of the content but I trusted him to read my writing and he promised not to censor anything I wanted to write about.  True to his word, he’s said he doesn’t mind…

Pop

You don’t like it when I mention the breakup; My words pop the bubble you’ve formed around yourself – like a comfort blanket.   No-one’s broken up during a global pandemic before; there are no hard-and-fast rules (not that we were subscribing to rules, but some guidance might be nice).   We’ve been apart for…

Entwined.

So entwined in each others’ lives we are, that as I was about to head downstairs to talk to you, you came up and asked if we could talk.  Our personal D-Day was fast approaching and you felt it was time to take stock and assess our progress.  Whilst you felt things were looking better,…

This is how a breakup feels

I didn’t expect the end to feel quite like this. I thought it would be characterised by indifference and calmness. Instead, I’m full of frustration and anger and a constant urge to just say something. I thought it would come in waves and the bad days would be punctuated by good days. More like the…

“She Calls You ‘Casper'” – Guest Blog

*Guest blog* – In January, my darling friend wrote a beautiful post about the stories we formulate in our heads with potential partners.  Here, he talks about learning what we want from a relationship and getting to grips with ghosts.   Recently, I’ve had to come face-to-face with a part of my dating life I…

My Heart Opens To Your Voice

Sometimes a blog post comes easily.  Other times, it’s a slog.  And then there are the rare posts that sit in your drafts folder for YEARS and slowly but surely, you add to the narrative and hope it turns out better than if you had just written the damn thing in one go.  Here is…

28 things that make me happy

Crossing everything off my To-Do list Making a new recipe and it turning out to be delicious Spending time with friends/boyfriend/family Writing Having a clean and tidy house – especially the kitchen! Posting a blog post Finishing a book That clean, moisturised feeling after a shower or a relaxing bath Hearing the rain on my…

A Thank You Letter

Dear A, I want to thank you for being receptive to the activity last week.  It’s been a tough few months and we haven’t been as happy as we used to be.  The constant bickering is driving us mad and our relationship isn’t always something for others to covet. Please be proud of yourself for…