Finding my Fertility (Stage 7)

It’s nearly October and we’re reaching the end of the first leg of this journey. So far, I’ve broken my fertility story into six stages: you can read Stage 6 here, Stage 5 here, Stage 4 here, Stage 3 here, Stage 2 here and, first, Stage 1. For me, the final stage has been egg…

Finding my Fertility (Stage 6)

I’ve been injecting for 11 days. On the 13th, I began injecting a solution containing follicle-stimulating hormones (FSH) and luteinizing hormones (LH) every evening to help my ovaries grow follicles (fluid filled sacks in which eggs grow). And from the 17th, I also started to inject a solution in the morning (between 7am and 9am)…

Finding my Fertility (Stage 5)

It’s been a frustrating month. The phone lines and computer system at the clinic were completely out of action for three weeks which delayed my (and countless other single women and couples’) treatment. However, things are finally back up and running – we’ve made progress! After more blood and immunity tests, we booked in scan…

I lie in bed

I lie in bed thinking of what I’m yet to remember and what I’m still to forget. What memories are bound to be laid down? Which events will come and go and who, who else will feature in the story of my life? Will this person make their mark? Will they be a protagonist or…

Finding my Fertility (Stage 4)

A lot has happened in the past few months since my last fertility post – Stage 3. I’ve had a pre-treatment scan to check my ovaries (still cystic, but lots of follicles so hopefully that means lots of eggs). My blood results have come back (low Vitamin D, dodgy thyroid levels and I’m not immune…

Love and Lust in Lockdown: Affairs of the heart.

Lockdown has got many of us feeling hot under the collar and frisky between the sheets.  To find out how lockdown has impacted our love and lusting, I’m getting intimate with interviews.   KevinAmari, 42. What is your relationship status? Complicated but incredibly good fun.  I’m having affairs with two married women, plus there’s a…

A Hopeful Letter – My Response

Dear A, What a beautiful, candid letter.  A mix of emotions rose up; eyes watering and a smile pinching at my cheeks; thank you for your honesty. I didn’t expect us to get to where we are now so soon.  It’s been a rough few months, hasn’t it?  Breaking up (unknowingly) just before a global…

Moving Forward; A’s Letter – Guest Blog

With time and after a few tearful phone calls, A and I have reached a stage of calmness, acceptance and positivity.  Here’s his recent letter to me (you can read his first one, here).  As with the previous letter; A has said I can post it on the blog.   Dear H, First of all,…

A’s love letter – Guest Blog

Last year, when A and I were blissfully happy, I shared with him this blog.  It has always been hidden from boyfriends because of the content but I trusted him to read my writing and he promised not to censor anything I wanted to write about.  True to his word, he’s said he doesn’t mind…

Finding my Fertility (Stage 2)

(Read Stage 1 here) Prior to a video consultation with the fertility doctor, there was a barrage of forms to fill in and a video to watch and understand. Some of the forms included: consent for the clinic to use my personal information an extensive medical questionnaire a ‘welfare of the child’ quiz : will…